I have decided to give up my Goffin’s Cockatoo, Jojo. It was not an easy or lightly made decision. I haven’t been able to take care of him as well as he needs. It would be best for him to find a better home. Cockatoos are very hard to take care of and I’m failing at it. I’m used to taking care of dogs, specifically chihuahuas. He is beyond my abilities to take care of.
My feelings towards him have also changed since Aayla died. I got him back in December of 2022 so that I wouldn’t be alone or hurt so much once she passed. That didn’t end up working out. I’ve never felt so alone, and I actually feel some resentment towards him due to the fact that he’s here and she’s not. It’s not his fault. He’s a very sweet and friendly little bird. I’m just not the right person to have him. I haven’t even been able to play with him since I said goodbye to Aayla.
So, I asked Mom to do whatever she had to do to find him a new home. We haven’t yet, but I know she’ll keep trying (especially since she can’t stand the bird). Dad wants me to get another dog once Jojo is off to a new home. I don’t know about that yet. I’m still in so much pain. Everywhere I look, I expect to see Aayla but she’s not here anymore. I can’t seem to get that through my head. I don’t want to replace her. I also don’t want to be alone. Maybe Dad is right. I don’t know. I need more time to think about it.
I really hope we can find Jojo a new home; a better home with a better owner. I’m so sorry, Jojo. Please forgive me.