I Don’t Know
Things have been difficult lately. I kind of went downhill back in mid-September and haven’t quite got back up yet though I’m trying to. I feel completely rundown and stressed out to the max. I don’t think I’m depressed but I don’t know for sure. I could just be coming down with the flu or something along those lines. I could also be depressed and coming down with some flu-like thing. Abbey Rose keeps me going though and keeps me from going off the deep end.
Dad is continuing to get worse and worse. He slept all day yesterday and then got up for five minutes and then went back to bed. He said he didn’t feel well. He did well at Thanksgiving when we went to my uncle’s house and visited with his side of the family. Before and after that though, he’s been really bad. He’s started getting agitated and easily angered. He got mad at Mom the other night and actually stomped his feet (very loudly) up the stairs. It was weird, and childish, and not like Dad at all. Mom is taking him to the doctor Monday and plans to find out what our options are.
Mom isn’t doing too well either. Her knee has been hurting her so much that it has greatly impacted her ability to walk. Her migraines are back (in part because of Dad’s worsening behavior) and she feels sick like she’s got the flu or something too.
Meanwhile, I’m trying to get back to doing… anything the least bit productive. I’m desperately trying to get back to creating mods for the Sims 4 with my Simularity website. It’s slow going so far. Like I said, I just feel so rundown and tired all the time. It’s hard to get myself going to do anything. I want to get back to my artworks too, but I haven’t even opened my art programs in several months let alone actually created anything.
I purchased the game Starfield when it came out back in September. I’ve been playing it obsessively ever since. It helps to get lost in video games when I feel like this. It also helps that I love the game. A new Sims 4 expansion is coming out in less than two weeks so I’ll probably jump to playing that obsessively which may actually be a good thing in regard to getting back to Sims modding.