A Clean Slate
I have finally finished (mostly) my Project Spring Clean. The remaining items on my to-do list are just minor details I’ll do once I’ve rested for a while. Working my ass off for three days in a row when I can barely sleep or eat has me now completely exhausted. I need a few days rest before I can do anymore. One of the main things I have left to do is hang up my framed prints in my office… to cover up the holes left from when I removed all those shelves. All of the picking up, vacuuming, rug cleaning, bathroom scrubbing, laundry, and more is now finished. Yay. It’s nice having freshly cleaned rooms to live in. Although I sweated so much today while working that now that I’m resting, I’m also freezing! Well, it’s not just due to sweat, I also had to slather myself with Voltaren gel because of my achy joints.
In addition to cleaning out all of my rooms, I decided to clean out my Facebook account too. I deactivated my old account which had too many bad memories and baggage with it. I now have a new Facebook account and I’m being far more selective about who I add to my friends list. I’ve got most of my favorite people from my old account to the new, just missing a few stragglers. It’s nice to start over/start fresh. Social media can be a blessing and/or a curse. I’m trying to make it back into the former.
I’m still grieving for Aayla and likely will be for quite a while to come. I have however decided to ignore my fears of having to ever go through this again and open my heart again. Tomorrow, Mom and I will be picking up a new puppy for me. She’s a small long-hair chihuahua. I have a name or two picked out for her, but I’ll make a final decision about her name once I meet her. When the mention of getting a new puppy was brought up, I made it clear that the new puppy couldn’t have a fawn coat or look anything remotely like Aayla. There shall always be only one Aayla in my world. The puppy I’ve picked out has a multi-colored coat. I can hardly wait to get her! I also look forward to sharing photos of her with you all. I’m in a strange mood right now. I’m still brokenhearted about Aayla, but also happy about getting the puppy. It’s like I’m constantly flipping a coin between sadness and joy and it’s wearing me out emotionally.